Working Through It
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about my job, and how I’m in it at this point in my life. It’s not something I’m in love with, but it’s what I’m doing and is where God has placed me and has allowed me to be for now. I think I’ve finally accepted it now and I’m in the process of trying to make myself the best in it. As in, to do really well despite whatever hits me. I’m in a weird place this year, because I’m in a position that’s allowing for more leadership opportunities and more of a responsibility. And I’m becoming less afraid to jump on those opportunities. So, as I try to reach for my best, what does that entail?
It means working a lot harder.
Planning lessons around the kids, which may seem obvious, but in an improved way that’s interesting and fun for them, not me. Always finding ways to improve and never give up - a way that delves from the norm every once in a while.
It means constantly coming up with ways that work in drawing students’ attention and having effective discipline strategies.
It means continually building relationships and starting afresh when I need to.
It means praying more and reducing focus on myself.
It means going above and beyond for students and being on their side. It means communicating and working better with my colleagues, and disallowing the stress from trivial issues, and being bold with who I am, and asserting that self to do what I have to do.
In church today the message was about ministering to the Chinese population in Kenya, and one of the speakers talked of God choosing people who are not the most qualified for the job, but who He’ll make qualified for where he sends them and what he asks of them (modern-day Moses). She said that “God does not choose the qualified, but he qualifies those he chooses.” It was quite an encouragement to me, really, because this applies to all situations where I believe I have no clue what I’m doing or how unprepared, useless, and under-qualified I am. BUT there is use for me, because I am where I am for a reason, and I’m not going to be indifferent to such a position of privilege.
Really, what I’m trying to do is fight this indifference. Because that’s what I tend to fall back on when I don’t care about something enough or when I don’t want to deal with being responsible for something. The biggest thing I’m incorporating this year is prayer. Daily, I’ve been praying for my students especially, myself, the school, the other teachers, administration, parents, families, positive influence, good leadership, God-led individuals and decisions, mentorship.
It’s hard, but I’m starting to believe it’s possible.